I know I can’t do it but why keep going on?
Dreaming is not a crime, I dream to have a better grade of education to bring home someday. Next year is going to be a dream year to upgrade my knowledge, ability and pride. Since my preoccupation has not been all about studying, I am longing for it. I want to know how it would feel to taste the suspense and time management during the study time. I am too envy to seize all those things. Envying others who can reach the top with a bright star. But I am not tough enough to face all those things. Not long after applying for my prerequirement test, I am preoccupied by those suspense thing. Each day I have to learn the unthinkable materials that was a huge burden while the D-date is getting closer.
To me now, it’s just a gambling. I’ll do what I can do -though I know I can’t do it- and I surrender to God for what He already planned for me. If God willing, I have no power at all, I can pass this test.
It’s just like I’m giving up, the test material is too hard to conquer and then it is like running out of time.
