Jaberwocky

I’ve been totally dispiritedly run-down this new year’s forthnight. It seems all my failure future plan has been haunting me since the test - and most likely will last till friday when I impatiently can see what I have done. It was actually my fault for not wholeheartedly exercising and preparing the test. I was too wary due to some little trips during the end of year’s holiday while those time was ample enough and such a perfect time to be well-prepared. The temptation was too enticing till I was procrastinating myself. I was thinking that it had been all through the year of hardworks can be redeemed by those holidays trip. I remember almost everyday (during the holiday) I went out for any occasions. I try to recalled them from the first time the whole family and Bob’s went to Redcliffe  on saturday 24/12/05. During the trip we had fun time also in Toombool centro and spent the night together with Siti’s family. Both friends went home in the middle of the night. The next day, on the Chrismast day, I then opened up my exercise book to practice the test. Luckily lara was invited to Mufti’s for some waterplay that could make me had enough time to learn. However, learning for one day has never been enough because the next day I couldn’t open my book again. It was a Boxing day that nobody couldn’t resist for a big sale everywhere in Australia. Some families had a deal to go Harbour Town for the Big Sale hunting. The group of the families were the ones who had the trip to Wet and Wild about a week before (17/12/05). The boxing day was not only a shopping time for us but also spending some time in the Surfer Paradise for a wet plunge and releasing the body heat after shopping. We had a great time, I myself had a boogyboarding which was in the middle of it I lost my swimming cap due to the big wave. I had quite some fun though I had to change my clothes in the tent. It was funny to cahnge the clothe in the tent because the changing room was not close enough to the beach we were swimming. But anyway we coped it. Late in the night we arrived home save and sound. The next holiday planned after this was Australia Zoo which would be on Wednesday. Every member of the family most likely agreed upon the idea.

Without knowing what to do on Tuesday 27, in the morning, all of sudden a long-time-no-see friend called me that our friend was mourning due to the great loss of her mum that day. We were rush to see her. She used to be my best friend who had a little disagreement with me. When I saw her, she was totally blue. She mixed what she experienced that time with our past disagreement. She kept saying sorry and even too much apologies. She even said she was mean to me. But forgive and forget. I was so sorry to see her and soon she flew to our home country to - at least - ease her pain. During that week, it was so many things happened, mixed between some fun and sorrow.

The planned for Wednesday trip was cancelled because of some reasons and changed it to saturday. On Wednesday 28, I got a damn massage from my boss that I had to work the next day while I knew that the key was impossible to reach the keys since all the workers were away for two weeks holiday. Before I got the message from my boss, my friend asked me to go to an Island in between the mainland and the Straddie. What the hell? It was ruining all my plan and it absolutely made me uneasy. Then I comfort myself that it was okay - afterall my husband couldn’t go to due to his work as well. I decided not to go while actually I was not sure to work. I made up my mind by calling anyone I know to find out whether or not I had to work. Finally I my boss told me not to work and soon I called a friend that I would go only with my daughter. I drove my self for a long distance and some losts. We were four cars in a row and had several times U-turn because of misdirection. To cut the story short, we parked the car and arrived in Coochiemudlo Island, we took a ferry for $6 return from Victoria Point (Mainland) to the island. We visited a friend of friend who lived in the island. It was a new experience to visit such a small island (one or two hours walking going around the island). The host was very friendly and the food was yummy. Her house was gorgeous with some traditional Indonesian ornament. We had a good time until I was pushed to swimm on the muddy water. The water was not clear and undesireble to dive into. But as consequencies asking friends to swim I had to swim. It was my fisrt time swimming in the muddy water with some seaweed underneath. Feeling disgusted by the mud, I stop swimming but still I enjoyed the island as the view and land were so unique. I couldn’t believe that in Australia there was sort of place exactly like in my mother in law’s village in a remote place. However, it was an unforgetable experience and some of the reasons is that was my first time longest driving.

On friday 29, I showed mu husband a typical ‘home’ market in Brisbane where we could buy stuffs in bulky size. Then later in the afternoon, I went swimming in the Aquatic center UQ with Tari. I needed a friend whenever I go swimming for childcaring my daughter when I really swam and exercising. I could see Lara was brave enough to the water and started to learn to dive as she was encouraged by a friends’ kid who accidentally met there. Having a hobby for swimming, we went to the southbank for smimminng the day after when the fireworks’ new year’s eve would be held. We had a swim again and later in the afternoon we watched Narnia in Southbank cinema. We just realised that we hadn’t prayed for Duhr and Ashr but we still have anough time and prayed at home. We canceled watching the fire works that night. We were all tired and wary.

New Year time indicated the end-of-year holiday would finish soon. It did not bother me much like others with their New Years’ resolution. On 03/01/06, I should be back to work and another depressing thing was that the sign of my dissaster-the test. During a week holiday I really didn’t care about my test preparation. It was too good to be missed and it was too bad I missed my exercise and wasted my time as well. In the first week of 2006 I started my test preparation again for a very short-impossible peroid of time to prepare the test. In the weekend I did my test with some regrets and edgy and jumpy feelings. I don’t think I could get through it. Until now the feeling of aggrievation is still preoccupying my mind.

Likewise, this first fortnight of 2006 has been full of things to have a deep thought; the first two thursday I had a car problem, one with the carby and the other with the brake. On 05/01/06 for the second time I got in the RACQ towing truck for a car problem. Another thing happened in this first fortnight was the unbelievably jam-packed and crowded female Eid’l Adha prayers in West End Mosque. I wouldn’t have gone there if I knew it. The space for women was too small. Everyone was commpressed and nearly even no space for ruku’. I couldn’t imagine how could the idea come very uncritical by not considering women at all when they design the mosque. Was it what was taught in Islam? I couldn’t understand it. The prayer couldn’t be as solemn as I wished. Talking about women, there was another religious things - that I think - deserved to be written. This is the first time I saw some IISB female members crowding the Mushala and being active questioning and commenting the topic. It was a good sign but I don’t know whether it was just because the hot-provoking topic or it could be because some new members just arrived.

The last, not to forget the financial report that this first fortnight of 2006 I spent some big amount of money for emergency, charity, study and a winter holiday this year. It has been a big momentum in this transitional period between 2005 and 2006 [the last fortnight 2005 and the first fortnight 2006]. Next in the near future, the result will soon be announced and see what happen? Continuing with the big expenses or else …. What ever will be, will be.

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